Scattered.

Tomorrow is my son’s last day of Pre-K. I can’t tell you how surreal this all feels.

 

It seems like just yesterday we were getting ready for our first day, and now our two years of attending the Lutheran Church Nursery School has come to an end.

 

I know that my five-year-old doesn’t get it and has no clue that he WON’T be seeing his teacher again that he has had for the past two years. But nevertheless, off to Kindergarten my little bird flies.

We couldn’t have been happier these past two years both with his school, and teacher and we were getting comfortable with our routine of three days a week. My son, who thrives on routine, will be somewhat dumbfounded when he gets a break for the summer. But having things switch up a bit (I keep telling myself), is going to be good for us.

We learn who his Kindergarten teacher will be this summer and they do an orientation for the students, including a bus ride, in August. So that will be the next big milestone that we will be looking forward to.

Now that my little one will be off to school, it will be time then for me to go back to work. Which, is still so high up in the air right now I can’t even see the clouds.

Before I had my son, I had just finished gaining my teaching certification, but it is something that by now has run out without adequate continuing education I was required to obtain to keep my license.

I can’t tell you how long ago the lifetime these past five years has felt like, but “before I became Mom,” is something I just can’t quite recall. I’m hoping once he starts school something will just “click” as it has so many other times in my life upon looking for my next step.

God is good and whatever path he has me on I know to remain faithful. There is a long road ahead and instead of being anxious about it all, I try to remind myself that it is more exciting than it is overpowering. Change is good. But sometimes in the middle of it all, if we don’t remain busy enough, it can really get to us.

We plan for a busy fun summer before my boy goes to full day Kindergarten. I plan to take him to the pool lots and have a lot of time spent outside.

Just last weekend I weeded my flower beds out front and put some new potting soil down when planting some zinnia seeds. We will see how they prosper, but I would be overjoyed in seeing those flowers bloom sooner rather than later.

My mom called me this morning with a prayer request and you know…it was one of the first times I remember being so grateful for being asked TO PRAY for someone instead of asking for it instead. It seems like I’m always asking for prayer as it has become my main source of reliance in tackling the world.

This blog post is turning into something more scattered than I had planned. Much like my zinnias. Sometimes with all of our planning that we take so much time doing, at the end of it all, things happen just as they do…as maybe they were supposed to anyway.

It’s okay I tell myself, to be scattered sometimes. It is what inspires. And when creativity can be found at its best.

Either way, God is with me, scattered or not, and you know…that brings me a lot of comfort in simply knowing it to be true. With God’s help, His master plan will be carried out and there is nothing I need to worry about. My mindfulness will keep me faithful. And Amen to that.

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed. For I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 (NIV)

scattered.

Author: partygatherings

Hi, my name is Jeanna. My life is a Party.

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