It has taken so long for my computer to start that I nearly skipped this blog post and went on about my day, but finally, after the spinning wheel kept turning, the word document opened up.
I haven’t been blogging most recently in fear that I would drive some people away. I know this is stupid and something I shouldn’t in the least be worried about, but beyond me being sick with allergies and not “feeling it” my blogging has taken to the wayside. It’s definitely taken a back seat.
I finally finished the antibiotics they gave me just yesterday and I’m hoping in the long run they help me somewhat but man, there for days I was down. I couldn’t seem to get my energy back up enough to even function and it made my depression and anxiety even worse.
Thank God for new days though as yesterday I was finally able to pick my head up without all of the spinning. My allergies make me incredibly dizzy which can get annoying.
Today we look at a little over a month that has passed without our dear Tyson and I’d say the worst of it is going on Facebook everyday and looking at the “memories” that filter through my phone. He was captured in EVERY moment because he was such a family dog that was at our feet and he was just there…always there. I try to tell myself that he is in a better place and I pray it is a place I will someday get to visit too.
My five-year-old had his graduation ceremony and it was bittersweet. On to Kindergarten we go now. This summer I’m sure will fly by with all of the things we plan on doing. I wish this year we were going to the beach, but we might settle for a handful of pool days and perhaps a trip to Lake Erie instead.
The kids all had graduation caps—the boys had baby blue ones and the girls had pastel pink. They all got a chance to go up and get their diplomas and as their names were called the teacher told the audience what each child wanted to be when they grew up.
My five-year-old said: “…he wanted to work with his daddy.” And I could’ve cried had I not been so busy trying to run down the aisle for a better photo. There were a ton of people there and two classes that graduated, but nevertheless there those kids go, off into the world and practicing something they will do again and again until the end of high school.
I can’t imagine a time that far in the future. In taking things one day at a time, I stay sane, but it can be daunting. The world is such a mysterious place and every day it seems things tend to change. Change over time is good but often times we don’t always deal with change the best way we could. This limits our growth as a people and with God. I pray that I am humbled and that as time moves on I am able to find new ways of dealing with change in appropriate and positive ways. I pray the same for you, as it is the best way to live your life—happy, joyous, and free. And Amen to that! When life gives you lemons, make lemonade!
“If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who give to all generously.” James 1:5