Today, as predicted, it is raining.
We were supposed to go to the school field trip to the zoo, and….get this: RIDE. THE. BUS.
My five-year-old was so excited to simply ride the bus, something that (unbeknownst to him) he will be doing every day soon enough.
It was a little disappointing that the weather didn’t cooperate so we could go on this fun trip, but I’d rather that they cancelled it than us being in the rain all day. My little one went to the doctor the other day and they told me that he has a pretty rough cold still, so staying inside (for today anyway), is probably for the best.
Today I plan to clean the bathroom and sweep up the house.
I’ll admit it’s still hard to be here without Tyson but I’ve been pushing myself every day to keep on going and to continue to do the things that remind me so much of him.
Because he passed away right beside my bed, I found it hard in the beginning to find peaceful sleep. And then after that I found it hard to physically sweep in that room just knowing I’d be sweeping up (what felt like) the last bits of him. I got over it though and now it has been nearly a month since his passing.
Because he was with me all day, I took the loss particularly hard. Every little thing seems to somehow remind me of the dog. Drying my hair for example- I used to dry his too and play a little game with him with the hair dryer. Or putting cheese on anything…I used to always give him some when I got the cheese out and I can still (if I imagine) hear him running when I would pull that plastic bag out of the refrigerator. It is the little things that I miss most.
It got me thinking this morning about all of the so-called annoyances we probably deal with daily that someday we will miss. My son can really get to me, for example, but I’d die before I’d ever give any of them up. Some of the time even my husband can get on my nerves with his little “quirks” but at the end of the day it’s what makes him, him and why I love him so much.
Today I pray that you allow yourself to see annoyances as gifts or for the little things in life that add up to the big things. When we work to serve each other on behalf of the Lord, everything becomes a joy. I pray you have a great day and even if it’s raining you find splendor in your own little world somehow and in some way. Every day should be a celebration of life. Let us not take it for granted. Amen.
“Your lovingkindess, O Lord, extends to the heavens, Your faithfulness reaches to the skies.” Psalm 36:5