We got Chinese food yesterday and my fortune cookie read: “Deep faith eliminates fear.”
As much as I want this to be true, I will admit that sometimes, I am scared even when I know (for a fact) that the Lord is always with me.
Today my husband left to go out of town this morning, and it has filled me somewhat with unease. It is not that I am scared to be alone here with my five-year-old, but that the dynamic of our situation has changed.
I’m not always good with change, but I try to get better at it as I move forward in life.
I keep telling myself that I can do this! I did it many times when my five-year-old was younger and my husband had to travel quite frequently. And if I did it then, then I can do it again.
I keep this self-talk revolving and it has helped me to regain some sense of control…because isn’t that basically what we are all afraid of? Lack of control?
To let go and let God is sometimes really hard but in situations like these it is vital if we ever want to grow in our faith.
My dog is still sick and has in fact, gotten sicker. He is now refusing to eat and throwing up everywhere all of the time. It is so depressing to watch this, so your prayers are much appreciated.
All in all, I am not writing with a letter of complaints today and I hope you don’t feel that way. With everything going on, I’m actually quite excited more than I am anxious.
When I really think about it, and count my blessings, I am glad for the time with my son I will get to reap while my husband is away and they do say that “absence makes the heart grow fonder” so maybe that will be good for my relationship with my husband too. I guess it is all in how you look at things.
Have you ever taken a hard situation and turned it into anticipation instead?
I am trying my best today to do this and know that with God’s help, I can do anything. I pray and hope you have a great day today too regardless of your situation. Every day is a day we can be thankful and praise the Lord. And we should. It makes everything fresh and new, and even if we feel fear we can rest assured we aren’t alone! And Amen to that!
“Commit your way to the Lord; trust also in Him and he will bring it to pass.” Psalm 37:5